I have a ton of school work to do. I have to write my portion of a huge research paper, and then I have to do some research and reading and writing for another huge research paper. But I’m scanning film and writing here on this website.
I’m terribly lazy, I know it. It’s probably my lame version of the Shakespearean “tragic flaw”, getting in the way of even those pursuits which I love. So when there’s something that needs doing, particularly something that isn’t my favorite activity, I’ll do almost anything else to occupy my time instead of that necessary action.
I always justify my actions to myself – at least with respect to my school work – that I tend to work best under high pressure. Also, something something work filling the time allotted something blah. Excuses, excuses, I know. But my own consciousness of this problem isn’t sufficient to transform my behavior. That needs prayer.
But sometimes I’m even too lazy to pray.